Looking Back at 2008

As 2008 is slowly coming to an end I can't help but look back over the last year and see all the good and bad things that have happened. I made some amazing friends, lost some that weren't that great, and reunited with friends that I hadn't talked to in a while. I've been in love with an amazing guy only to make careless mistakes which made him leave. I've grown closer to my family but only because of a bad situation that I put myself in. In every good thing that has happened was inevitably followed by something bad. I've been in and out of the hospital more times this year then the rest of my life combined. And I've made more mistakes then I can even count. I hurt many and was hurt by some. But without mistakes how will anyone ever learn. I learned alot about myself this year and I've made a real breakthrough with my writing. I can only hope that 2009 will be better for me in hopes that I learned some valuable lessons through all of my mistakes. I'll always cherish the special moments that occured in 2008 like watching Statepark perform for the first time, all the times in Kansas City, my friends that were always there for me through all the hard times, and all the good times spent with my now ex. So everyone have a Happy New Year and may 2009 be good to all. This next poem is one I wrote over the summer. It's about my ex the one that I dated in highschool. It's about letting go and moving on and that's what New Years is about letting go of the bad but not forgetting the good. Those are the memories worth keeping. This one is entitled Temporary Goodbye and please bear with me because this one is pretty long but I couldnt' stop writing after I began. Be Safe And Smart On New Years Eve!

Temporary GoodBye

What happened to the star crossed lovers I once knew?

The ones that could conquer any obstacle

Why did we finally fall in defeat?

I thought we would have fought for our love forever

But it didn't happen that way

We let our faults get the best of us

And in time our love faded and the fights grew

The fire that had once burned so fierce in our eyes

Soon died out

Then before we knew it, it was over

Don't think for a second

That I've forgotten you

Even though I've tried

But all of the memories of us

Keep filling my head

Our first date

The frist kiss

The first night together

We had so many plans

And now when I think back to the beginning

Everything felt too perfect

We were young and in love

But that was never enough

You wanted more

Maybe we're better off

But I can't help but miss you

And everything we once were

As it turns out we weren't so perfect

We wanted different things

I needed my freedom

And you wanted to settle

I wasn't ready for that

Or so I thought

But I can't help but think about it now when I'm lying in his arms

Why wasn't it that way with us

I was always looking for a way out

What made our love so different?

He at least attempts to see the real me

Something you never tried to do

You pushed and shoved for something that was never there

I never tried to be perfect

But that's what you wanted

A mindless doll that you could manipulate

And I didn't give inI fought for my spirit

And with that you burnt all of the bridge

sThat at one point had connected our 2 hearts

I've moved on

And I suggest you do the same

You'll always be in my heart

But never again in my arms

I'll never regret anything

And I know you won't either

Today we're different people

A little older and a little wiser

And soon our love will just be a memory

Many people will come in and out of our lives

But we'll still be there somewhere

Because love doesn't die it just changes

So I won't say goodbye

That's too permanent

I'll just say see you later And leave it at that for now