Resolutions

Well it's finally 2009 and I hope that everyone had a great New Years. Mine was great I spent it with good friends. So I hope everyone has all their resolutions made I know I do. And it's not one of those like lose weight and anything that would involve changing my physical appearance. Because looks fade so when you're making yours make ones that will help you be a better person. Mine are completely quit smoking, no drinking, drugs, or sex, finish my novel, work on my relationship with my family, and get the trust back that I lost. I can't wait to see how this year turns out. I had alot of great times in 2008 and I'm hoping to get alot out of 2009. And looking back I can see that I have lost a couple of the most important people in my life because of careless mistakes. One of them is still there but we're not talking except in our own way. And the other I'm afraid is gone and I don't know if it's permanent or not I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens. In celebration of the New Year I am downloading Stateparks new cd because all of the songs on there are completely brillant so you guys should check it out. It's at www.myspace.com/statepark and it's completely free. And also I have written a new poem about a conversation that I had with my ex before christmas. I have been trying to write this poem since and nothing was working but I finally finished it tonight. But I don't have a title for it yet so I was hoping to get you guys involved by giving me ideas about what to call it. I would really appreciate your input. So here it goes.

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Sleepless nights piling up

Thinking of our last conversation

And everything I did wrong

The fights I could have prevented

The hurtful words that shouldn't have been said

The night that made you suffer

And all the months I didn't tell you

I want to go back

To prevent it all from happening

But I can't and it hurts

Knowing that it should have been different

But I failed

And now I am left alone

Suffering for everything

Crying for what I lost

A love that would have been great

Different from any other

For a time I was only focusing on the bad

Without looking at the good

That is until now

All I want is to be in your arms

To be the great couple

That I saw in my dreams

But I know we can't right now

I know you're hurting

And that is my fault

So for now I'll let you heal

And continue to work on me

I love you now

And I'll love you then

I'll hear you on the airwaves

So know I'll always be there

Til the end

Whenever that is